...as I slid my exhausted body underneath the cool, clean sheets, Mark reminded me to set the clocks back one hour...
...a change of time.
A change of season...
...a change of life, at least for me and my family.
My mind began to wander into the past as I wound back the hands of the black ornate clock, a wedding gift almost twelve years ago...
...in my mind I was with my grandmother, laying on her bed that she had just smoothed, the handmade quilt that her mother had sewn was neatly folded at the foot of the bed. I was sixteen, my head resting in the palms of my hands as I watched my grandmother standing in her mirror, applying her makeup...
"What did you want to be when you grew up?"
"Grandma....really...what did you really want to be when you grew up?"
"I really wanted to be a mother. I dreamed of being a mother, a beautiful housewife, and I wanted a dark green velvet Devan."
I remember thinking to myself that she had succeeded...she was a mother, she was beautiful, and she did have a green velvet love seat...although it was bright green, not dark.
"Why do you ask? What do you want to be when you grow up?"
"That's easy Grandma...I want to be an actress. I'm going to sing on Broadway someday."
"I know you will."
And I believed my grandma...I believed that she believed that I really would be an actress. She was my biggest "fan!"
"Honey? Are you okay?"
I was abruptly brought back to the present, Mark was laying in the bed next to me as I held the clock in my hands...
...As I set the clock back onto the nightstand and I sank into the softness of the covers, my mind reeled with thoughts of the past two days. It was my first Women of Faith conference...and I had spent the weekend building relationships with incredible women. Together our hearts and our minds were soaked with the Truth...God's Truth.
"I'm going to share my passion for Christ and all that He has changed in me with the world! I'm going to be a Woman of Faith...I'm going to tour with those women that have stories to share. I'm going to be God's light and help bring others to their salvation! I'm going to do it. I really am!"
"I know you will."
...And I believe my husband...I believe that he believes that I really will share with the world! He is my biggest "fan!"
And I smiled.
Me, Angela and Jill at the Women of Faith conference!