...what a year...right?
Well...for me, anyway.
I feel like I've endured more struggles and hardships this year than I have in all my thirty-six years!
Earlier this afternoon, after visiting with a friend, I was thinking about this past year...the change that has occurred in so many areas of my life...my family's life.
The lessons (and there have been many...), the struggles, the hardships, the BLESSINGS, the laughter, the new friendships...
and I remembered something that someone said to me recently when I made the comment "it's all a part of God's plan for me"...
...she said, "Where is God in all these hardships?"
...I didn't answer her. I knew it was a question that she had no intention on hearing the answer.
But today...today I want to answer her question...
...We can choose to shut ourselves off from what God is trying to accomplish through us in times of trial or we can seek His reason and benefit.
"And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." ~ Romans 8:28
God will use all our circumstances, good and bad, to mold us to the image of Christ, if we let Him. The question should never be "Why did this happen to me?" but "How will I be shaped through this?"
The loss of my brother has brought me to know Christ in a way I never have before. I have grown in my faith and love for Christ. Although I miss my brother terribly, I truly believe that Christ has answered my requests and prayers to assure me that Cal is in a better place, that Cal no longer feels pain...that this was all a part of God's plan for Cal.
So...where was God in all my struggles this year?
Working through me.